Push The Button!

Tonight I confessed one of my secret impulse control problems. And, no, it's not eating any kind of food. I like to push buttons, not people's buttons, real buttons, especially if you're not supposed to push them. This is an impulse I control fairly well, better than others (eating chocolate for example!). With the kids around, I have lots of safe buttons I can push to help with the desire to push a button.

I used to work at the Boyce Thompson Institute for Plant Research. It's on a university campus. In every elevator there is an emergency call button/box/phone/speaker. The elevator in our building had a door you opened. Inside was a speaker and a red button.

One day, while I was riding the elevator alone I had the urge to push the button. You'd think I would have plenty of buttons to push in the lab. Apparently this day there wasn't enough.

I assumed that there would be no one to answer at the other end of the emergency button. I just figured it was there for the fire personnel or police, if there happened to be an emergency.

I pushed the button...A voice spoke to me out of the speaker, "Do you have an emergency?"

To which I replied, after a long delay, "No, I accidentally pushed the button."

Thankfully no one came to check up on me. Guess it helps to be on a college campus.

Did I mention I was 23 yo at the time?

Writing, Finally

I finally wrote a couple of pages in my book this weekend. Might not seem like much to you, but it is a lot to me. Getting even one page in at a time is wonderful! My sister-in-law was kind enough to donate her old lap top to my book, I'll have to remember her in the dedication! I just need to remember to turn it on, and not my main computer. It's way too easy to surf the net, use Facebook, play games, etc, etc.! The difficult part I'm working on right now is finally coming together. I'm just trying not to think about how it will end, and just write little bits at a time.

On another note: The kids enjoyed looking at the moon last night. The little Dude noted that the moon was getting bigger. Last night it was half full. Last time they saw it, it was only about a sliver. Explained, briefly, about how the moon grows bigger and then smaller every month. Not sure how much they were paying attention, but they seemed to absorb it for later.

Garden Goodbye's

This afternoon I finished cleaning out all of my flower beds, getting them ready for the winter. Matt even pruned the crab apple tree for me. This is the first time I've actually cleaned them all out. In past years I was hit or miss. The ones I missed over the years made for easier Falls, but the Spring plantings required more work. Just because you don't clean your gardens out in the fall, doesn't mean you won't have to clean them out sometime, if you want them to remain a garden! It feels good to have one item checked off my list, at least for a few months. As a Mom I have the eternal to do list with jobs that continually need to be redone, even if I did them yesterday. I look forward to the endless mountains of dirty and unfolded clean laundry, stacks of macaroni art dishes, and Lego landmines.

Organizing Thoughts!

I'm working on organizing my, as I call it, growing vine of thoughts. I had a great bible study tonight with Matt on the names of God. We discussed Elohim (elo-HEEM). I was able to talk about some of the thoughts that had been percolating about that, since we do a study in 2 weeks to meditate on it. Then a friend came over who had missed the Ladies retreat and wanted to see my notes. We had a wonderful visit. Talking with her helped me to settle some of the thoughts I had been having about prayer and other sundry things. Now that I've thought about these thoughts, talked with someone about them (it's amazing how even just verbalizing something can make or break it, not to mention the added benefit of someone to respond and point things out you didn't see!) and worked on writing some of my questions and thoughts down I'm pruning the vine to a more manageable size. I think I can now string a few complete, related thoughts together and have them make some kind of sense! Yeah! Unfortunately it is time for bed, so I will have to wait for tom. to see if I can be productive with all this thinking...

At A Loss

I'm having issues with my brain. Not that I haven't been thinking, but thinking too much. One line of thought will spawn another, which will in turn spawn another, until I'm so tangled up in them I don't know up from down. Trying to separate out all the strands to write a coherent thought in any form is very trying right now. I'm glad that these thoughts are interesting and will someday be productive, but right now life in the spider's web is wearing on me. I can only hope my thoughts slow down and organize themselves before I go off the deep end with them coming out my ears. Pray for those I come in contact with, they won't know what hit them!

Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow!

Woke to about a half of inch of snow on the ground this morning. Matt was very unhappy about this. He doesn't like snow, since it means cold weather, which he doesn't like either. The kids were ecstatic about all the snow! They were so cute running around to the different windows and pointing out all the snow. They couldn't wait for me to dig out all the winter things so they could go outside and walk in it. Listening to them made me so excited as well. The world was much prettier this morning. Better than the mud and bare branches we've been getting. This fall has been fairly blah color wise. Much disappointment in the house when all the snow finally melted.

Elizabethism - When she about 2, and really getting into the idea of snow, we had one last snow storm in April. I explained to her that this would probably be the last snow. She burst into tears, begging me not to let the snow go away. Apparently she thought that there would be no more snow ever and was very disappointed. All the rest of the spring, through the summer, and most of the fall she talked about how sad she was that it wasn't snowing any more. No matter how many times I explained to her that it would snow again later in the year, she didn't seem to believe me. She was so happy when it finally did snow again.

Rewrites

It's late and I need to get up early, but I promise to write a full blog tomorrow evening. I'm going to work on rewriting my latest Dustin Dust-Bunny story. Hopefully you will enjoy seeing the writer piece of me more active. Still frustrated about writing anything new. I do my best writing after 10pm, but have to go to bed early most nights. I have to get up too early and be too with it to care for my children to spend many nights up writing. I'll just have to plan one night or so a week to write. Here's hoping I can carry out this plan!